Facebook: You're a Sneaky Little B*tch..

It's been awhile.. and for that I am sorry. It's not that I don't have anything to write about; it's that nothing has really struck a chord with me that has sent me flying to my keyboard...............................until NOW.

Facebook sure can stir up some kind of emotion...Especially when I am suuuuuper bored and I take the time to strategically read the posts and look at the newly posted pics--then I remember someone or see them on someone's wall and of course navigate away from the page I was initially on, and before I know it, I am sitting 1st class on a direct flight to cyberville, USA... looking at an acquaintance from High School's wife's sister's daughter's 2 year old birthday party.......?!?!?!?! REALLY. Like, I seriously backed away from my computer and shut down Facebook. There's no way that I should be this deep into someone else's life who has NO idea who I am. It was scary...

So, obviously when you're on Facebook you run across people you used to know, people you dated, people you liked, your past 'enemies', etc. I have actually maintained pretty good restraint in not lurking on people's pages (people of interest we will call them) sometimes though you just DO it. You let yourself get to that page...

When I got to those pages today, I didn't go to the emotion I may have gone to year(S) ago, I went to the reminiscent emotion, thinking about that time in my life aside from that particular person. It's a trip...
I started thinking about what car I had back then, where I went, who I was hanging out with, what my weekends consisted of, what I was wearing, my hair, my tan, my weight, How old was my sister? What was my relationship with my parents like at that time? Was I drinking then? Was I smoking? Which of my friends was I the closest to at this point in my life? What songs were out? It's a lot to take in, and then .. .Kings of Leon came on the radio, and made me feel like I was in a movie as I was sifting through the pages/photos.
I started to look at the recent photos of these people and they don't even look the same, their GF or fiance, or wife are nothing what I ever pictured them being with... they weren't the kind of women I compared myself to during sleepless nights post-break up. Enter KC & JoJo, Selena, Babyface, and Lit songs here...

I sat in my chair and felt really silly... putting myself back into that time, back into those emotions, and wishing DESPERATELY I could go back and have this moment of clarity: then. I guess that's the point though.. life doesn't have do- over's. It's just weird to think that you were a part of people's lives for so long, and then poof! You are gone.. they're gone. The world you lived in is no longer... and I can thankfully say: THANK GOD.

When I was asking all those questions above, like where I was at in my life at that time.... the answers weren't good. They weren't good in comparison to how great my answers are now. There's a reason why your past is your past, and it WILL haunt you if you don't meet it at the front door with an axe to hack apart, and bury. That's what I realized today... the people from your past (the ones that haven't been in your present and definitely won't be in your future) need to be let go: completely. Visit the page, take a look, have a mental trip, and move on. Don't act like I'm a Facebook stalker either.. cause we've all done it.

Be happy for where your 'page' is at.. be it there or not. Are the answers to your questions better now, or were they better back then? Think about it.. and if they were better then... why? What were you doing then that made your answers better? If it's now that your answers are better, how are they better? What can you do to maintain? And how can you make them better?

I am really happy to see that it took me 15 minutes to jump into a time machine, have a mental trip, shake it off, and see clearer. I think you know life is good when you can look at your past and thank God ...it is what it is: the past.

I love my family more than ever, myself, my friends, my man.. and everything that concerns those 4 things. I feel really lucky that I'm mid twenties and have certain things figured out... so that way as I get older all the new s*it has somewhere to be stored! hahahah

Make it a great day... for real.